I swear I think there's something wrong with me. Why do I continuously develop & hold crushes that I can not act on? The girl is either married, too young, lives to far away, a lesbian, just plain isn't interested in me, we work too close to together, or some combination. Not only do I develop these crushes, but they build, and I beat myself up over it. Maybe it's because, since I know I can't pursue her, I avoid the inevitable rejection. But if I don't have an excuse not to approach her, then I might actually do so and then get my heart broken. I dunno. It's stupid.